I'm trying

I’m not perfect and I’m not striving to be, but what I am striving for is to be healthy and comfortable in my own skin. You know what doesn’t help?

This 

Will it ever go away? Will I always have this saggy skin there?

It looks like a tumor when I’m in any position besides upright or on my back.

I’m going to keep going and TRYING. I CAN’T GIVE UP. I WON’T GIVE UP.

I’ve got to keep telling myself this when it gets so frustrating to see the scale not budge or to have this belly pouch as I’ve so lovingly named it. I need to learn to accept and love every shape my body takes on, but sometimes it is really hard. Will I ever see 120s again or even the 130s? 

Just keep swimming, just keep swimming, just keep swimming.